It's so easy to feel unworthy - like I'm not measuring up in today's world. I have a pretty good self-esteem…but still.
My husband didn't kiss me good-bye this morning when he left. He's not mad at me - just busy and was trying to get the kids out the door.
My kids didn't practice their violin enough last week and the teacher knew. They're still young, so of course it's my fault.
I've had my son's orthodics for two weeks and still haven't cut them down to fit in his athletic shoes and basketball season is almost over.
At school, the teacher is expecting us to read a book she sent home. Neither of us has started it yet and the semester is nearly over.
I forgot to sign my kids up for swim lessons all last summer.
My publisher wanted my book last year…and I'm still polishing up the second draft this year.
The pasture fence is falling apart and I haven't had time to repair it. The horse needs more attention.
I have needed to get several fillings replaced in my teeth - for over a year now.
I really should exercise more.
My house is cluttered.
My niece's birthday was last week and I went from wanting to get a present, to wanting to get out to buy a card, to simply posting "happy birthday" on her facebook page.
In all areas of my life, it would be easy feel like a failure. Just reading my latest Woman's Day magazine, I realize I could look younger if I use Olay products, streamline my linen closet, and prepare meals in less than 20 minutes. I should be able to do all of this while fitting in a new exercise plan, working, and taking care of two young children.
Oh - and don't forget the marriage. The marriage has to come first.
No wonder I'm so exhausted.
But God doesn’t look at my "to-do" list and count me a failure. God sees the miracle that is me, and loves me so much that He thinks I'm worth dying for.
"Be still and know that I am God," He says.
God wants a relationship with me. He wants me to take time out of my busy life to spend a few minutes with Him each day. Imagine somebody who thinks spending time with you is way more important than anything else! More important than all your accomplishments. He's not worried about whether there's milk in the fridge or your socks match or if it has been six months since you got the oil changed in your car (and yes, it has…). What He cares about, above all else, is that you spend time with Him. God wants to be with you.
Be still and know that I am God.
He created me - He knew me before I was formed in my mother's womb. He has plans for me. Plans to prosper me and not harm me. Plans to give me hope and a future. He wants to spend eternity with me.
To God, I am worthy. I am His child. I am His heir.
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